[ Cali raises a hand quickly when he stumbles, only to freeze, thinking better of reaching out. ]

… [ There's a moment of quiet, of fierce inner debate. Does she admit that she'd almost thought Wash would've been happier with her dead? Does she admit that for a moment there, she'd wanted to die? No. No, she does not. ] Spite's a good motivator. [ is what she says instead. ]

Besides ... I figured he'd had enough of people leaving him, one way or another. I wasn't about to add myself back to the list.